It feels like somedays I'm addicted to technology.  It's a guilty pleasure of mine because I remember a more simple time. Times when children weren't consumed by information.  I'm not too concerned what adults do but seeing kids all over the internet can be kind of unsettling. I think its a generational thing, and I think it makes me nervous that I'm at an age where there is a difference in generations.  I was certainly raised different than kids now and I can't avoid that.  It puts me in a different state of mind from time to time thats all.

Speaking of generational gaps, at age 27 I've had my fill of life. I've had more than the shit end of the stick and I've had enough crap thrown my way.  Not to say that I'm not the 1st to go thru it and walk thru it but that fact shouldn't negate the fact that we all aren't built for horrid situations.   I've tried to reach out to some people and gain perspective as to why awful things happen to anyone and  I get answers that are vague and lack substance. I'll hear things about faith and how it could be worse and a few other abstract and yet meaningless theories.  If I had a dollar for every time I had to chalk anything up to shit happens I could buy and sell people left and right.  Shit happens isn't a reason, and it is what it is isn't a reason and God having a plan isn't a reason nor is free will. None of that is justification for good people being fucked over.

The most sense I can make of any of that is be as impartial as possible and think logically and not emotionally.  I can do that, but going off that logic it would be a bit hard to ever have a spiritual life as there is nothing logical about religion.  I have no problem with people being religious but I jumped that ship awhile ago. To each their own though and I genuinely say that. I don't give a shit what people follow but I will say get ready for a lot of let downs in life. Life can be full of dark disappointments.
I was always told disappointments and setbacks define the person we turn into.  I don't disagree with that but it also sounds like some fucking smarmy hall-mark-esq card.

Speaking of Hall-mark cards I saw Lamb of God on wednesday.  What a fucking experience that was. I've seen them a handful of times before but this time I was backstage.  Through some of the networking I have done over the last few years I found my way with all access passes.  Keep that in mind kids its still all about who you know.  So after going thru hell to get to this show and driving thru a typhoon to get home I can say the night was a success.

This whole experience also made me realize even more that musicians aren't machines they are people. That may seem obvious but people don't realize that musicians deserve privacy and have lives outside of their passion.  Every huge status musician I've ever met came from some broken home or some lower middle class background and so they realize how much life can suck.  These guys play the same songs for a fuck load of towns. People don't get that.  I didn't get it for a long time.  I just assumed people in bands would be your best friend.  Even in my situation where I was friends with someone in the bands inner circle, its just not normal to expect to be accepted.  I had a fucking blast, I did some networking and saw a great show.  I just also want people to know friendship will never be forced.  Additionally well know people have to always look out for themselves.  We live in a very sad world where public figures are just dollar signs.

I value my life, I was just looking over some photos while writing guitar riffs and I realized that for all the bad I've had there was good. in the last 10 years I met Aaron Lewis of Staind, I got on stage with Green Day to perform a song, I've met members of Slipknot, been to countless metal shows and now I've partied with Lamb of God.  For that I'm thankful.

I'm a libra so I do struggle for equality.  I'll always struggle to make right what is wrong.  I don't do this in a super hero sort of way because I can't fucking stand comics. I do it in the sort of way-- where at some point in time society lost sight of what it was to be a normal person. I still struggle for equality and I've come to the perception that equality can be a state of mind.  The interesting point to that is if you find someone who is looney as a tune their equality perception can be way off the reservation.  Part of me also suspects I have Larry David syndrome, where I think I'm being wrong but the rest of the world doesn't suspect such a thing.  For that I say the world sucks. I usually do get fucked over and they suck.


Thank you for reading I wish there were more but rambling doesn't help.

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